Dearest Deviants,

     Well, it's been 30 days and I have finished writing my novel Giniro. Now all i have to do is go back fix the grammar, edit, add more scenes, deepen my characters, and make my plot twisted into twisty-twisty pretzels... great. Don't get me wrong I'm very proud of myself to write a novel in a month but I think I'm going through some post-traumatic stress since I went through the actual process of writing pretty mildly. I don't hate my novel, I love my characters very much and I celebrated with some of my friends afterwards, but now I'm having the worst time concentrating on it, I have even taken 3 days off - buying myself a little manga for a reward, reading it and finishing off a Harry Potter book -  before going back in. BUT I CAN'T DO IT! WHY?! I mean I haven't slept that well, I've been killing myself to get a job at the same time and I still haven't started my summer project for school (I mean I really want to get that bitch out of the way so I can have more damn time to MYSELF).

     Ah, to hell with it for now. I'm just gonna tough it out. On the bright side, I met my friend Karly's cousin over the weekend and she offered to edit my novel because she needs the practice and was interested in my storyline (and since we're not close friends or anything she doesn't have to worry about hurting my feelings, she'll give me the straight truth about my novel. which is what. So I might take her up on my offer before I let my close friends read it, I want it to be perfect and get their personal feedback (though they better be honest with me, my feeling cannot be spared!). But what if I over come this rut I'm in and get people to edit and read it for me? Then what? Publish it right? Shit... scary, and I have no idea how I'd do that! *smacks self* Okay, no need to worry about that, I've got time. I just need to take a breath and focus on whats in front of me...redo redo redo until it's perfect in my eyes THEN I'll worry about publishing it or not.

Thanks for reading and for your support, if I do ever publish Giniro D.A. will be the first website to know!
With sinister love~
Xandy-chan


Still posting pictures for the 100 theme challenge.... very very slowly though; that's why I like doing this: no deadlines...
THE LIST:
1. Introduction [link]
2. Love [link]
3. Light [link]
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace [link]
6. Break Away
7. Heaven [link]
8. Innocence [link]
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory [link]
12. Insanity [link]
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning [link]
17. Blood
18. Rainbow [link]
19. Gray [link]
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature [link]
23. Cat [link]
24. No Time [link]
25. Trouble Lurking [link]
26. Tears [link]
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain [link]
31. Flowers [link]
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand [link]
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes [link]
38. Abandoned [link]
39. Dreams [link]
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion [link]
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood [link]
49. Stripes [link]
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret [link]
54. Tower [link]
55. Waiting [link]
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice [link]
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out [link]
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale [link]
62. Magic [link]
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps [link]
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance [link]
70. 67%
71. Obsession [link]
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me? [link]
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink [link]
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold [link]
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red [link]
87. Food [link]
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire [link]
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up [link]
94. Last Hope [link]
95. Advertisement [link]
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First [link]
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation [link]